It all gather within the box and when the box can’t handle what kept it being filled, everything that’s been placed inside was tardily spreading out and stretch each corner till it tears apart. The floor was flooded with unnoticed stuff, they’re all desperately placed on the floor, hoping and waiting that somebody will come along to pick them up and clean the mess they have caused.
I wasn’t aware that I look foolishly stupid inside the jeepney (common public transportation in the Philippines). My tears were running through my face as if they have only had their freedom to show off. I was trying to be strong by not letting them out but they have insisted to pass out and I couldn’t restrain them. People around look at me, and I’m sure I have rendered them a blank face and keep them bothered by what they have witnessed. Right that moment, the pain is just so strong, I can’t fake myself and look so strong precisely because I won’t let people know how I felt that moment.
But I never regret that once in my life I look stupid and suffered deep pain because I love the person whom I believed would never give up no matter how hard the situation is. I know the pain that I’m experiencing right now would soon be gone, my lips will be painted with curve lines of happiness, and my eyes will soon be replaced with beautiful scenery. My thought will soon be filled with exciting things and my heart will also be filled with understanding, respect, hope, trust and of course love.
Whatever I’m going through now is entirely part of growing up, it’s all part of preparing myself for someone better. I won’t mess my life simply because someone left me in pain, but I instead pick myself up and take it positively to learn and grow. Life is beautiful, full of surprises, full of exciting things to experience and making good memories is always a safe and a good choice. Pain, rejection, failures and discouragements are all constituents of life, we can’t elude from them. They’re all part of what we called” Life cycles”.
I promise myself to go beyond limits, live the life I dream of, because we will never grow up and learn, unless we try and keep straining for the better.
Happiness is not always loved in return, but also loving the un-loving, it is likewise a choice, you either take it or disregard it.